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15 May 2009 @ 10:56 pm
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Hubbie and I have started the arduous task of looking into day care.  My husband's night work is most likely going to run out in a month which means he'll have to go back to his normal hours.  My father in law is still unavailable since he's caring for my mother in law.  We've checked into a few places, but it is obscenely expensive.  One place wanted $1300 a month...for part-time!!!  I realize New York can be expensive, but holy shit...that is just ridiculous. 

If this is the going rate for care, I might as well just quit and take care of the baby myself.  God, this whole thing is so frustrating.  Some days I let the darkness seep in and start entertaining thoughts like I wish my MIL would just hurry up and die...and I hate myself for it.  FML
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Jukebox: zuko-surprisejukebox_csi on May 16th, 2009 04:11 am (UTC)
Awe hun *big hug* I wish there was something... Sometimes I think daycare is a total scam. I used to choke when writing out the check. When the hubby lost his job, we decided it would actually save us money for him to stay home with Peanut than to go back to work elsewhere (by the time you factor in cost of gas, cost of appropriate clothing, cost of meals away from home, etc).

I hope it all works out for you. Don't beat yourself up for feeling the way you do when the darker moments hit. It's a totally understandable, completely human response.
evilkat_meowevilkat_meow on May 17th, 2009 02:39 am (UTC)
Thanks. Seriously, though this "early learning/day care center" was really, really nice. It would be worth the money, but I don't know. We're still discussing it.
rookafrk on May 17th, 2009 08:01 pm (UTC)
wow $1300 for a part-time month only ? That's just ridiculous. And if I recall well, you're not in Manhattan either, what's it gonna be like there ?
Anyways, I hope you can find solutions soon. Maybe you or your husband could find a job that can be done from home ? There are some nowadays.
And don't feel guilty or like a bad person because of when, pressured by the situation you had dark thoughts, that would have happened to anyone in this situation.
Don't lose hope, my friend, and good luck through all this.
evilkat_meowevilkat_meow on May 19th, 2009 03:11 am (UTC)
No, I'm not in Manhattan, but out on Long Island. I can only imagine what the cost is in the city. Friends of mine who live in Brooklyn said they are paying through the nose for care as well.

Jobs from home, from what I've seen, are generally low-paying unless you're running your own business from home. I haven't looked into it too in-depth, but it is a possible option if we need it. Right now it looks like we're going to put the baby in this one place and just pay the money...though it pains me to. It is a good place and it will be good for the baby to be around other kids his age.